Me, my ovaries, my breasts, and my feminine inner power, the power of Tantra.

Pachamama, the eco community located north of Nosara where a lot of yoga teacher trainings and yoga retreats in the beauty of Costa Rica's jungle take place, is one of my sacred healing places. It is a community where I have the space to dive into my inner wounds, where I have the space and openess for me to grow in a vulnerable and at the same time empowering way. A place where I can accept and experience my feminine side. Pachamama, for me is a place where I feel the high vibes of life from the first breath I take after I enter. I feel the awareness of the tribe and the consciousness which lifts up the prana in the whole area. Four years ago I spent two months there and this time changed my life, I feel it brought me through participating in different workshops of self-development and trauma healing back to me and my pure bliss body, my pure soul. It was the first time in my life that I felt this deep connection (yes, I know, I say that after every training ;) ...same as I surf the best waves of my life every day). But that's what it is: growth makes every day to your best day. I have learned to see the beauty.

So, the power of Tantra was what I experienced this year. I can still remember the bright clear eyes of my friend Eva. She had just shared her amazing shift of pure feminine energy. I had no idea what this course was about, but I trusted my calling. Because I trusted her wisdom once she shared this tantric journey with me. Listening to her opened so much in me.

I could write pages about it, but one guided meditation really healed and connected me in such a beautiful way. Rajji guided us through an energy meditation where I felt the whole shift of energy in my body. I want to mention on this point that I have been working with energy healing for a few years and this experience was super special. We flew through our yoni and our whole body. Especially the journey through my yoni was a unique, amazing, energetic dance as I experienced a new perspective and feeling with her. What I felt was at the beginning a huge release of a trauma where I was in after a surgery. I can not describe how strong I held onto this trauma without knowing that it existed in the little muscle of my beautiful yoni. I saw so clear that all the things that happened at that time were related to unconsciousness and disconnection with my sweet soul.

In this meditation I was able to release this whole feeling to open up an even more clear way for me. Furthermore we connected all the chakras and especially when we connected our yoni with our breasts, I felt the whole energy in my breasts, it was crazy as if a huge fireball was travelling through my breasts. I felt my boobies without physical touch, this was huge and strong! I thought before that I was able to feel my breasts, but this expansive intense feeling brought me closer to my feminine side. Wow, what a special unique feeling.

For years I was on one of those strong acne birth control pills and since I stopped taking it, I realized how far those hormones took me away from my feminine side. For years I was kept in this little girly childhood body. I did not give my body the chance to grow because of this pill. I felt disconnected over years until I did my first 400hr Yoga Teacher Training. In the Tantra with Karam and Rajji I was able to feel an even more deep connection to my new gained feminine side, on a physical and through this meditation also on an energetic level. It was the most amazing, connecting and blissful experience I had for a long while. The most powerful feeling for me was that I felt my body and energy without actually being touched. It felt so pure, authentic, and peaceful. It felt bright and joyful and just feminine. For me, this meditation was a life changer, allowing me to grow further to an adult Tina warrior goddess woman. I am grateful, empowered and healed. I am growing in selflove through every training with those wonderful human beings. Thanks Rajji, thanks Karam.